personal recap of 2025 by yours truly
this picture is a screenshot from official higedandism's music video, same blue, which best represents what 2025 has been like. yes, it is actually the same blue. as young and clear like blue sky, mesmerised by life, shaken by excitement, trying to overcome fear and uncertainty. all grown-up, while also letting myself be immature at times, preserving my childlike traits because i wanna be young and happy forever.
i usually list down my new year resolutions in detail. however, i only got one for 2025 and it was considerably general: i wanted to put myself out there.
2025 is the year of exploration for me. i moved to another country, got back to school, and got to live by myself - away from my family and my closest friends from home. previously, my new year resolutions had always been about actively seeking out what's out there. this time, i wanted to let everything come at me and experience everything. new surroundings, new people, new world. and honestly, looking back, this has been my best resolution yet: to let myself be open and receive.
highlight of 2025 is connecting with so many people around me, cherishing them, and letting them cherish me back. it feels extraordinarily special because it has been hard to meet and connect with new people as i grow older. i once felt that i outgrew the life i have built because it got so boring even though i didn't mind living in routines. meeting new people, building meaningful friendships and learning from them has been on top of the list on why i survived this year. i once told my friend that friendships, to me, are no less than romantic relationships. they're special because platonic feelings demand nothing in return, and i'm always willing to sacrifice if it's for my friends. i feel grateful and i will never take everything for granted.
2025 is also the year of exploring new places. i enjoyed lots of strolls, went on some road trips, had countless amount of sleepovers and left footsteps in many parks and gardens. it kinda proved how simple and cheap contentment can be. i want to do it many more times in 2026.
lastly, 2025 is the year of revisiting things. i got to watch many many of my favourite films in big screens, including Rebecca (1940), Singin' in the Rain (1952) and Back to the Future (1985). reparenting my inner child! although i did not really watch a lot of movies, the joy of living in the present healed me in the best way possible.
in 2026, i will have the same resolution because i still haven't had enough. so yeah, let me put myself out there this year, and we'll see if anything new comes at me!
(well, i also want to graduate and land myself a job! haha)
♪nowplaying: vaundy - kaiju no hanauta